Is it all really worth it? I mean I dont plan on giving up on anything because I am a stubborn person but what are we all working towards and how much does it really matter. Who judges us in the end, I know for a lot of people they feel that God will judge them, but I am just not convinced. I am in a philosophy class and we are discussing the definition of justice, and I am stuck on a true definition. There are many just people out there that also have some unjust feelings occasionally, and I am one of them but does that make me injust or is there a balance. Can one be seen as being just or unjust when they have occasional tendencies towards the opposite side? And futhermore why are we comparing ourselves to everyone else? People grow up this day and age to do what they want be who they want to be bur really dont we inhibit ourselves by comparing ourselves to others out in the world.
Im not saying that its terrible, some people thrive on competition, but I am saying that ultimately we have to live to be the best (insert full name here) you can be. I will be the best Jessica Carnes I can be, and that is my perogative. I care deeply for my friends but I cant tell them what to do and what not to do because they have to make those decisions themselves. I hope to God that they make good decisions, that they at least consider the risks of what they do but I am not them and its not my decision. I just wonder sometimes if there is anyone that has similar feelings. Ill tell you one thing, I havent found them yet!
I will say, that college for me is worth it. I wouldnt have been able to grow to the person that I am if I hadnt gone away to college. So far its one of the hardest things that I have done but it really made me stronger and I learned how to really stick with something. I am not a quitter! And I will forge ahead into life and I will find my way, even if its hard!
IN happy news, Basketball season is getting closer and that makes me SOOOOO happy! Transy's first home game is 2 months from tomorrow. And UK's Midnight Madness is 2 weeks from Sat. SOOO exciting. Off for the day, its almost time for lunch and then I have a paper to write, its the 4th paper this week!
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