Sappy Mood

Tonight some friends and I went to see Nights in Rodanthe, an awesome movie and that was just the start of the sappy night, I come back to the dorm and my roomie and other friends are getting ready to watch Beauty and the Beast. Thus, I am running off of a couple of well ended romantic comedies, and it makes me think of my situation. There is no guy in my life, and mostly I like it that way, but occasionally I think it would be nice to have a companion. Part of my problem is that I am too busy, and laid back to care too much and another part of my problem is that I am SO shy. I have seriously been working on it so that I am more outgoing, so that I can make conversation easy, but I still get stuck. Maybe its not the right time to have a guy in my life, but I feel about as out of time as my brother does. I mean I know that I will live for at least 80 more years, rather I really HOPE that I get to live that much more, but at the same time, it seems as if most of my peers have had some sort of real relationship. I havent, not really. I guess this post is just my way of complaining that 1. I am too shy, which is probably my own fault 2. I want a guy to be there for me but not necessarily to smother me, I dont do well when I am smothered 3. That I know of NO guy that is attracted to me in the more than just friends way 4. The guy that I would like to notice me, probably doesnt know that I am alive or thinks that I am incredibly creepy.

Here's to turning over a new leaf, for being the best ME I can be and hoping that, through being more of myself and more open and outgoing I will find someone to at least get to know!

Have I mentioned lately that I miss my dog?! :)