Two years later.

It has now been two years since my grandma passed away.
Last year I wrote that I was living so that she would be proud of me, and I still stand by that statement. I remember last year on the anniversary of her death it was a pretty rainy nasty day, and instead of being annoyed by the rain, I celebrated it, I remember smiling and dancing in the rain, and I DONT do that often!
So today was a beautiful day, and my grandma was on my mind the whole day. I started the day by walking to the farmers market and buying local produce, and then I talked to some friends and then I went to the park and sat outside while doing homework, just enjoying the day. After that I bought some books to read for fun and went to Panera for some sweet tea. At Panera I ran into an old friend and so I chatted with her for a while. By this time it was dinner time. After dinner we went played buzzword and goofed around, and now, as I sit back, I think of today as the perfect day. I got some work done and I got to just enjoy the day. Nothing could have made it a better day.
Todays motto was to LIVE life, to enjoy the world around me. I know that I want to live life with no abandon and if I am scarred by hurt or anger, life isnt going to be good. So dont dwell on the bad things, look forward to each new day, each new beginning. And go out with a bang. Live a life that people will want to CELEBRATE once you are gone and not mourn. Because if they mourn too much for you, then they cant live their lives, and thats not a good situation.

So Grandma, once again this day is dedicated to you. I remembered you, as I always do, and I think you would still be proud of me. I love you and I miss you, but I am still alive and so heres to living MY life! :)