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I spent some time with a friend today, just talking. She's someone I've known for years and while we werent close as kids we've gotten closer as we've gotten older.
Today we were talking guys. We both have problems. I have limited experience but she doesnt have any experience and so we lament together.
Today, my (new) guy was the subject. I've consciously not tried to talk to him since Wednesday because I was hoping he would send something to me, but on the other hand I dont want to leave him hanging and feeling like I dont want to talk to him. But then again I want him to want to talk to be because I freakin wanna talk to him! Ugh.
So what do I do?
I ask all my friends. But they all think I'm cute and sort of write me off. But there's no right answer, right? We are all different and we all have different experiences. We can look at someone's experiences and learn from them but that doesnt mean we will have similar experiences!
So then I ask myself what I want to do. I WANT to talk to him. But I want him to ask me for my number- apparently Im a little old fashioned. I want to hang out with him and see if we have any face-to-face chemistry. There are a lot of things that I want. But I told myself I wouldnt harass him over the weekend and if he wanted to talk to me he could, so I wont do anything til tomorrow, and hopefully tomorrow I will get to talk to him. And there are so many things I want to talk to him about that I dont know if he will get any work done! haha.
 And thats the other thing, I know when hes at work and will talk to me but what about when hes not at work- does he ever think about talking to me? I know, I know, Im over thinking it, but thats who I am. :)
So now, 2 quotes that I have running on a loop in my head are:


Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind



We’re all a little weird. And life is a little weird. And when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall into mutually satisfying weirdness—and call it love—true love.

Therefore, Im working on saying what I feel and finding my mutual weird person! :)

Gee, I wonder what will happen next...

So, I think last time I wrote I mentioned G.
Well, G and I have been talking more and more.
He surprises me every time we talk, and is almost always teaching me something new.
I havent laid eyes on this guy in 6 years.
But he makes me laugh.
Yep, I have a crush.
And we will tentatively be hanging out in August.
Thats right, folks, I asked him to partake in a social activity with me. Aren't you proud?
Whats better is that he said yes.
Ive not been able to stop smiling for 2 whole days.

Also, here is one of my pieces of our conversations:
Me: How do you feel about bowling?
Him: Its racist and homophobic.

I about died from laughter when I read that.
I hope laugh at that, because if you dont, I think you might have problems. :)

Anyway, that's all I've got tonight.

Happy dreams, ya'll.

Something Different

Its not really old school, but its definitely something I dont think I've done before.

I told you about talking to G, but heres the thing, we only talk on fb. I dont have his cell phone number- so no phone calls, and no texting. We've emailed a couple of things- which seems super old school, hah. And we havent seen each other in years. 

And yet the conversations that we have arent special, they are really just 2 friends catching up and chatting, and yet they make me laugh and laugh. I love laughing. 

On the one hand I want to talk to him daily- all the freakin time, text him, talk to him on the phone- and im not a phone person, or even get to see him and spend time with him. But then, on the other hand I love our current conversations, talking to him now and then, sort of randomly. 

Its better than the nothing that I am getting from the other one. 

And until just this very minute I hadnt thought about J since I started talking to G. 

Its funny how much life can change in a year. 

This year has been full of good changes and I look forward to whats next, hoping that its just as exciting. 

Hey, theres the potential that in the next year I will have moved out or, shock, maybe be in a real relationship. Ok, ok, so I am getting a little ahead of myself, but the world is full of possibilities, y'all! You never know who you are gonna meet, or reconnect with! 

Enjoy your day, because tomorrow its a different day, and there will be different reasons to be happy. 

Next!!

So, last month I was all hung up on this kid, the one in DC. But I havent heard from him- not really- since I visited him and while I know he is communicationally challenged how hard is it to say hi on facebook, really?

I randomly went on a canoe trip with my brother, his wife and several of their friends including one of C's best friends from high school, DP. Well we were both tagged in one of my sister in laws pics and then one of MY friends from high school asked DP how he knew me. DP told G and then since I was tagged I sent G a message too telling him how I knew DP. And then G and I started talking, and talked for an hour, at least. And ever since then- its been 2 weeks now, we've randomly talked. My god this guy makes me laugh. Hes charming, says cute things, sweet things- at least I think they are sweet. And he seems to be really interested in whats going on in my life. Whenever I ask a question about him he answers but then turns the subject to me. He has not once not responded to me and whenever he has to go actually work- because we usually talk while hes at work, he apologizes and tells me he will brb. Then every time we are signing off he say "tty soon?" its like he doesnt take it for granted that we will talk again, its endearing.
Talking to him makes me happy. That is all.

Alaska is done

And I didnt finish blogging on this blog, but you can check out the rest of the trip on my other blog- thats right, I have 2 blogs, really I have 3 but anyway, the rest of the trip is over there.
http://adventures-threesixnine.blogspot.com/