Seriously?

Ive spent the whole week being emotional. And then I spent the weekend being physically sick.
Not how I saw my week going when it started.
Nonetheless that is what happened.
I stayed in denial.
Then I did the whole sad depressed thing.
And no Im kind of moving on to anger.
I realize that I told G I didnt want to be dating, but damn it I did not mean that I wanted him out of my life.
And hes freakin ignoring me.
Really dude?
We spent 3 months building a friendship, less than 2 weeks of actual dating- we were never even facebook official and now you wont talk to me? What the hell?
Also, if you were really fond of me, you would want to still be in my life- be my friend, because I just needed to take a step back. I need you as my friend- really.
I would tell you all this, but I am TRYING to give you space. I know, I suck at giving you space, but Im stuck between giving you space and making sure that you know I still care.
I know its not easy to "go back to what we had" but I am hoping we can at least open a line of communication and talk again, see where/how that goes.
I hope you are still reading this blog.
And to everyone else having to read my angst... I am sorry. lol.