High school - yep, high school- it was tolerable for me, nothing special. I played soccer, or started the season playing soccer my freshman year- that didnt last, but sophomore year I did play the whole season. I went to football games and basketball games. I made good grades, but I was always just ready to leave, move on. My popularity wasnt going to peak in high school, and I knew it.
I left high school figuring that I wouldnt ever really look back... and yet, Im looking back. There are things that I didnt really pay attention to that I am kind of seeing in a new light. No, I'm not going back and reliving the whole experience, but I am getting glances into moments that just make me pause for a moment.
Obviously, I've been talking to someone I knew in high school- albeit I didnt know them that well, but it has been so much fun. Sleep has become something that I push back... midnight on work nights, and even later on weekends- why sleep when I can be laughing my butt off at something ridiculous?!
And to add to the blast from the past there is a person - s dot- who I've known for something like 15 years- wow, I dont think I realized I had known her that long but just the past couple of months we've become really close. Its funny really how our friendship evolved. We met in girl scouts, and really didnt have much to do with one another other than the fact that our parents were co-leaders. Then scouts was over and eh, we just werent really friends. Later, she was looking at colleges and came to visit me at Transy and we got along pretty well. She didnt go to Transy, but we saw each other a couple of times over the years and then we made plans like movies. But this summer, and I cant even remember when - crazy, right?!- but we decided to workout together and we've talked every day and seen each other almost every day. Its kind of really nice to have a good friend that is close and who I can see almost every day. And we really are working out- exercising, ya know? Zumba, and walking. I love it, who woulda thought.
There was a song that we sang in girl scouts "Make new friends, but keep the old. One is silver, the other gold." Its cheesy, sure, but I am learning just how important it is to have the older friends in one's life. Maybe you share a lot of experiences with them and they will know about the infamous Timmy, or maybe you didnt know them that well before, but you are getting to know them better now. Its all a great journey. But then there are the people in my life from Transy- the "new" people, and they are just as important. They are witness to my Transy experience in a way that no one else will be.
At the end of the day its not about who I was, but who I am. Every little moment has shaped me, some more than others but each moment is like a cell and when they all come together you have me, this person. There are flaws- or mutations, if you will. But because of them I am uniquely me- something that no one else can be and for that, I am blessed.
I hope that you all feel just as blessed, grateful, amazing and unique!
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