Wouldn't ya know...

So I'm home after a family vacation- family as in my brothers and their wives and kids were on the trip as well as my parents, 12 bodies in all. And while there were moments that sucked- I didnt get to see my nieces as much as I had hoped - I felt like this was the best family vacation that we have been on as a group (its the 3rd one). I was happy. I am happy.
I had my own room and I didn't feel lonely once. I was with my family- people who love me and I got to talk to others who love me. I didn't feel like the odd one out. I was grateful that I had my own room, my own space. Yes, it would have been fun to have the kids spend the night one night, but that didn't happen and its OK. Often when the family is around I feel lacking because I don't have a significant other or kids. But this time I was so happy. I didn't have to think about anyone but myself- ok, yes, I drove my car down so my parents depended on me some, but still I could go off and do my own thing. I could sit down in my room and read, or take the boys for a walk or watch MY tv shows. I could sit in MY room and do whatever it was that I wanted to do and I LOVED every single moment of it. I could sleep in the middle of the bed, and use all 5 pillows! (The 4 that the hotel provided and the one that I brought.) I felt comfortable and happy and at ease. I felt like I was me. I am the person I am meant to be. Life is truly good.
It made my heart happy to finally feel that way on a family vacation. Usually family vacations are full of angst for me.
And now I feel 2 things simultaneously. 1- I am ready to share my family vacations with a significant other. Things came together on this trip and I didn't hold things back and I felt good and I look forward to going on vacations with my significant other and kids in the future. 2- I am confident that if I DON'T have a significant other when we go on the next trip I will be totally fine and just as happy, if not happier.
I have found peace with where I am, who I am, what I am. There are still many things to come, but I am excited for them, I look forward to them. But until they come, I'm good. I'm in a good place- which is awesome. May you all find your happy places! :)