Frustration, Irritation, and Getting Away.

So I am frustrated and irritated, obviously. I mean I know that I have somewhat of an obsessive personality but its not because I care about you oh so much, but rather its because I care about everyone. I remember things, I think about things, its just who I am. And apparently this is just too much for some people. Its not that I am stalking anyone, its just that its what I do, I get to know the people I am around and I tell them of the things that make me think of them. So dammit I am sorry if I may scare you, its not on purpose, I dont have evil plans in my head.
ARG, I am angry. I cant really put a finger on a single reason for my anger. I think though, its related to my teeth still hurting from the dentist and getting the cold shoulder so to speak from a person who I had up until now considered one of my really good friends from college.
And by the way, I am going to San Antonio and so as usual, I will keep my travel stories on here. :) That is if anyone reads this still, on a regular basis.
One last scream before I move on, so SCREAM!!!!! And goodnight everyone.

The Start of Summer

First I will address the previous post, because things have changed. I definately still love the person that I was talking about in that post, and I hope that they will always be in my life but I am not so hung up on him as I was. I have realized something, and partly it was because of something revealed to me and partly I think it was just the time for me to move forward. This person was my rock for a while and it occured to me that maybe I wasn't as ready for a relationship as I thought. Sad as it was I need a guy, someone who meant a lot to me, to help me understand that I really am a good person, that I can be wanted. This person helped me with that and I am eternally grateful.
I am really glad to be home with my family and I even have an interview tomorrow, which is exciting for me. I have learned a lot and grown so much in the past year, and I am thankful for that.
So in wants to keep this post short, I will stop here. Goodnight

Missing You

It is hard for me to admit how much I miss you, mostly because we aren't together. There's not much more in this world, at this time that I would like more than being with you. But then again I have been hurt in the past and its just hard for me to step out on that limb one more time. I know you may never read this but I feel just a little bit better, writing out how I feel.
Anyway, I miss you more than you know, I feel like something huge in my life is missing since you are gone. I know that is kinda silly but the past couple of weeks, we have been together a lot, basically all of my free time we have been together, and it has been so nice that I dont want it to stop. I know that we will see each other again before the beginning of summer break and I just hope, really hope that I am able to tell you the way that I feel.
I dont know if you like me back. And I dont know where you stand.
But I do know that I like you;
I know that you are constantly on my mind,
I know that I have never felt this way about someone before
And I know that if something doesnt happen, at first I will be really hurt
But I will get over it and if we cant be a real we, I hope with all my heart that we can at least be friends for a long time to come.
Now, that I have beared my heart for the world to see, I will now do something else!
Til Next time,
Jessie