Til Forever Ends

Theres so much to say
but where should i start
its been forever since we last talked
but you make it seem like it was just yesterday
when we talk you always make me smile
we have such a great history
knowing each others' lives
almost as well as our own
we've been through thick and thin
from family trouble to crushes
yet we stay good friends
even when we havent talked for a year
you keep me grounded
even when your not here
you live in another country
even though its temporary
yet we still havea bond
that no one can break
thanks for being there for me
and know that i will always be there for you
til forever ends- together we stand

Happy New Year to everyone and stay safe out there. Especially tonight. Til next time...
Jessie (Snoopy)

Not much to write but what the heck

Today was pretty boring. Nothing really happened and there were no dreams last night that I can write about tonight. So as there is nothing to say I just get to ramble. Maybe I'll write you all a poem. Maybe not considering I cant think of anything to write about. Well in other life news, recently I had my first boyfriend. Yes, at 16 and 1/2 years old I have finally had my first real boyfriend. However while I was swept up in having a guy like me like that we went out and he wasnt the type of guy that I normally see my self with. Anyway we went out for almost 4 weeks and at first since I was caught up in the flurry of a guy really liking me it was great. Then the novelty of a boyfriend kind of wore off. I really like the guy still but just not like that; hes a great guy but I just dont have romantic feelings for him. Anywayso in my life thats guy numer two. I've already talked about guy number one, Tim. And then I have written a poem about guy number three, Nathan. Tim's the one that I truly loved, Nathan's the one that I treated like crap, and Matt's one that I will care about but not romantically. Life I guess is full of ups and downs and you just have to ride the roller coaster out!! Till next time!!

Jessie (Snoopy)

Dream

Last night I had a dream of the one guy that I have truly loved. It was a very good dream. It made me realize how much I valued Tim's friendship. I put my feelings for him before our friendship and maybe that wasnt the best of ideas but thats what I did. In my dream it was kind of a closure. We saw each other at the county fair, we started talking and I realized that he was a great guy and that I actually was over him. It was a relief, I liked him for 8 years. I dont regret any of it though. I learned a lot from my relationship with Tim and although I probably wont talk to him for a while, he is a big reason for my poetry. Its how I learned to express my feelings for him and for other things that I or my friends were going through. Thats my thoughts for today. Musta been a boring day if all I talked about was my dreams.

Jessie (Snoopy)

Life

Life is always moving forward
even when you are stuck in one spot
life will leave you behind
make sure you keep up
dont get left behind
but dont get swept away
keep your head on your shoulders
getting high isnt an answer
neither is getting drunk
you make mistakes when you are impaired
things happen that you cant take back
sometimes you dont remember what happens
sometimes its somethng you regret
whatever happens when you are drunk or high
usually it isnt something that you are proud of
experiment? yes
use all the time? no
life is too short to have regrets
you dont even have to be religious to have a purpose
religion is sometimes the answer
but for some people it doesnt matter
life happens for a reason... dont let it leave you behind

Back In My Life

You came back into my life
when I least expected it
now I've realized how much you mean to me
You are a wonderful friend
Everything seems right now
No awkwardness about our past
No question about our present
we are just friends
right where we need to be
you gave me justr what I needed
and exactly at the right time
lately I've thought about our past
its a part of who we are, something that we can't change
something I don't want to change, No Regrets
Thanks for being one of the reasons I am who I am
Thanks for being you..... Nathan

This is a poem that I wrote last night while I was laying in bed trying to go to sleep. Nathan is a friend that I at one time was very very close to. Recently I haven't talked to him very much, he's been living in Canada. I saw him Christmas Eve and it made me realize how much his friendship means to me.

The Day After

Its the day after Christmas and my mother is sick. I found myself sitting in my room watching TV and exploring blogs. What a wonderful day to spend a day. I have such a wonderful life!
No really I've just had a really really boring day. I don't really have anything to write but here I am. Sometimes I wish that I was as creative and original as some of my friends but I'm not so we will all just have to deal with it.
I really should be writing my paper on the causes of World WarII. But instead I'm sitting here watching TV and writing this. Its all goo though. Oh, I saw a movie last night and I recommend it. It was a very good movie. It was 'The Family Stone'. Totally predictible movie, but it was still good. Well since I have nothing else to say I suppose I will post this and then watch more TV. Until next time..
Jessie

Introduction

My life, though it has some weird moments, is pretty fun and I wanted to share it with those who want to know about it. Firstly, I am 16 years old. I have a job, I go to high school, and I volunteer with various organizations. My goal in life is to live it with no regrets. Sometimes doing that is hard, but then again its fun to. I had first heard it when I went to "Challenge Leadership", a day long confrence that I was invited to in middle school. Since then I have really tried hard to live life with no regrets, and so far it works.
I wrote a great deal about my past then I realized people probably don't care about my past, they probably want to know about what is going on in my life presently. I was reading a friends blog and my life seems so boring compared to his.
I am a puppy trainer for Paws With Purpose. PWP is a non-profit organizations that trains service dogs. These service dogs will mainly be for physically disabled people, those who are in wheelcxhairs. Training Payton, my puppy, has been a wonderful experience. I am able to take Payton everywhere I go. She can go to movie theaters, stores like Wal-Mart and Kohl's. I have even taken Payton to school. The sad part about all of this is that Payton will have to be turned in in February. She will go to advanced training. This training will determine whether Payton will be a breeder or a service dog or even whether she will be released in which case she would come back to live with me. Payton has helped me become more accessible. Its funny how many people will ask you questions when you bring a dog to a business. Sometimes the business isn't happy with having a dog in their estrablishment and you have to fight to stay in there. The service dogs are protected by law. They have access right pretty much everywhere. Those of you reading this that know me are probably bored by this entry but oh well. That's it for now.