Its Friday!!

Hey everyone. Im so glad that its Friday. The only downside is that i still havent written that paper thats due on Monday. That will be this weekends chore. But anyway, ive had a good week. My friends are all saying how their life is horrible and well mine is great. Yea, i have no boyfriend and yea, one of my friends is going back to Canada where he goes to school and yea, ive had to get up at 5:30 every morning to go to school but i dont think i could be much happier if i had won the lottery. Ive decided that im happy that i am who i am and that i wouldnt change anything. And those who want to change me, well, they cant. Oh, did i tell you all that i got a 27 on my ACT? I was extremely excited. Still am, thats been part of my great week. Plus i got to spend some time with Nathan, which i havent done in over a year so thats good to. Then theres the choices that i make. I know that ive talked about choices before but i know that the choices that you make affect everyone around you. I found out that three of my friends are gay and though i dont have anything againast gay people, well it was kind of a shock to have it confirmed. I am proud of the choices that i have made and i dont regret any of them. There is one guy that i love. He was my first love so i will always love him but, i think that they way i handled loving him wasnt great. But you know what? It was a learning experience.
You may not know that much about me but the guy that im talking about is Tim. I love Tim, i always will but i understand that we are not made to be together. I have now decided that he is a person that i would love to have as a friend, if only i could get a hold of him to talk to him. Sometimes Tim was a complete jerk to me and well i just looked the other way. This will happen no more. I know what i do when im in love with someone so hopefully i wont be as bad next time. Yes, i know Love is a strong word and i dont usually say it unless i mean it and i really didnt think that i loved Tim. It was one day when i was talking to my friend Sarah that i realized that i loved him. And its only because she said it. We were talking about how much i was head over heels for him and i said well i dont know why im so worked up over him. Then she made it clear to me. She said "because you love him". She was right. But though i will never be over Tim i now know that i can be ok with just being friends with him. Anyway, a shortened version of pert one of my love history. Lucky you. Till next time.
Jessie (Snoopy)