Lady Antebellum
It happens. One day you are so agast over this boy, things arent going anywhere and you are SOO hung up on him (happens to me all the time) but at some point my body takes over, and tells both my head and heart that its time to move on.
So its time to move on.
This one wasnt the one for me, neither was the last one, or the one before that. And why the hell am I looking for 'the one' you ask? Well because although I have grand ideas and grand plans, the fact of the matter is that I will probably marry the first guy that I ever have a lasting relationship with. Again you ask why? Because call it a curse or a blessing, but I havent had a relationship with any guy, or at least a long one, and you know why? because theres been ONE ITTY BITTY LITTLE thing that holds me back, and it turns out that LITTLE thing saved me a lot of heartache.
So I am back to being me, the strong me.
I can and have gotten through all the hurdles thrown at me thus far, so I can keep going, and slowly but surely I feel the confidence building, maybe I'm not the creeper that I always think that people might perceive me as. Maybe just maybe someone will see me, the real me.
Maybe someday I will be at the summer party that my family has with this person. And you know what? He is going to have to convince at least 40 people that hes genuine, and thats ok, and he will. And afterwards he will hold my hand and open the car door for me, and we will go home- together. This my friends, is my current dream.
1 comment:
No one but your victims think you are a creeper. Everybody else loves you for being so...."dedicated" :D
AND whomever wins your heart will appreciate that you care enough to find things out about him. If he's good enough, he will be like us and like you FOR that, rather than in spite of that.
And that's that.
PS. Sorry about the car failure.
PPS. Told ya we should have pulled that guy over and asked to trade.
PPPS. Please don't kill me for being a smart ass.
PPPPS. I love you!
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