You Already Know

By Train.

That person, you know, the one who always came running to me when he had a problem? The one who told me he didnt want to lose me because I was more than just a friend, I was more like a best friend? Yea, he hasnt contacted me in roughly 3 weeks. And honestly, though it feels a little weird, I am kinda loving the fact that he is no longer in my life. Its like a deep sigh, of relief. He pulled away so I dont have to worry about not being there for him, he brought this on himself. Will I completely delete him from my life? No, I dont think so, I dont like burning bridges, but I might, just might delete him from my phone!

There are so many people in my life that love me, and who I love. Now, I can spend more time with those who bother for some back and forth conversation, rather than just contacting me when its most convenient.

Besides, though I dont know that I would ever tell it to his face, I deserve better than him. I deserve someone who wants to show me the world, someone who really honestly cares for me. And I am not sure that he cared for anything more than himself and not being lonely.

But the world is a lonely place, and if you dont learn how to be lonely, you arent gonna learn how to really appreciate company, and love them for how they help you in life. Yes, that sounds selfish, but if you cannot appreciate how others help your life then theres no way in hell that you will be able to see how you help others in their lifes.

Regardless of all that, and feeling selfish once again, but I feel as if this is my time, my year. And I am so excited for it, seriously, its gonna be awesome. And well, if I am wrong, thats ok too... I am just ready for this chapter!