Something happened last night.
Something that was a long time coming, and good.
But I cant tell anyone about it because no one will be happy for me.
And the person who I want to tell the most, is giving me the silent treatment.
It sucks.
But I am sorry, I wouldnt change my experience last night for anything, because it was a long time coming.
I just wish that you would be happy for me and let me celebrate with you.
I also wish that you would tell me your honest opinion when I asked and not let me find out that you are pissed about things later.
I love you, I cherish you and our friendship, but I also think that you were trying to protect me from him, and last night, I didnt need protection, I needed to do what I've been wanting to do for months now.
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Think I've figured it out. It's not him I disapprove of, if you remember my slightly less than sober confessions to him on the stairs of Joe Bologna's of how I shouldn't like him but I do. And it's not the two of you together, or whatever it is that you two are, it was all the drama that it caused and the tension between everyone because of the relationship webs we created over the past four years. I think it helps a lot to not be so physically close, gives one perspective. I hope that whatever it is or was you wanted to ask or talk to me about you feel okay doing that. My mind is much more open, and I am ready to listen. Love you!
And selfish though it was, once he showed up I was definitely not trying to protect you, but to keep myself as safe as possible.
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