My famn damily.

No, that post title is not a typo. Just switch the first letters of the last 2 words... then you're speaking my language.
Its family vacation time again. A time for love, drama and hurt feelings.
The past 2 vacations I've kind of felt the odd one out. I am the odd one out, really... I am the one in her mid twenties thats not married. The one that doesn't exactly have a job. The one that is a perpetual student without a day job. It's been a part of my life, my identity that I've had to deal with, and in the past I havent exactly dealt with it gracefully.
One brother isnt even here yet and some shit has hit the fan. Sigh.
And it sucks, and my brother is being an ass... but you know what? Do you know what I've learned?
That I am lucky. That I have at least 2, maybe 4 kids that adore me and that there are reasons I am not married.
I see so much in the marriages of my brothers, I see and I'm not always jealous- dont get me wrong... I want to be married and I want kids, but my god sometimes the heartaches that happen are so petty, so awful and so stupid.
I know that when and if I get married it wont be perfect, I know that we will have our struggles and fights, but I hope to god that one day my husband tells his sister that he married the love of his life instead of telling his sister that his wedding anniversary is actually the day he made his biggest mistake.
What the fuck, what am I supposed to do with that knowledge. How AWFUL is that? And idiot, if you feel that way- leave her. Dont be miserable and make her miserable- how is that any way to live?
I am lucky to be where I am.
I hope that I find a man who loves me, who I love and who will work with me through issues instead of just blowing up during family vacations.
But for tonight, I will enjoy my simple life- and by simple I just mean unattached. ;)