ARRRRG Irritation

I dont know whats wrong, whether its just me or if I am really on to something but people seem really ARG today. I got a bad grade on my first test of the year and my response was that I didnt really want to tell my mom because she would say something along the lines of "well are you gonna go meet with Dr. P now?"- which she did, almost exactly and I didnt want to tell others because its not that I feel I am letting myself down rather that I am letting everyone else down. If it was up to me I would take it in, be upset for about an hour and then move on. BUT no, I get to explain to everyone how terrible of a student I really am. Whats wrong with me that I dont get the grades that are always expected of me, its not that I am doing things wrong but rather I am getting bored in the subjects that I am studying and I am getting tired of studying for over 4 hours a day for a class that isnt even in my major.
I feel as if I am going through the day and everyone is glaring at me. Its not fun at all. See I see myself as a pretty empathic person, meaning that I pick up on strong emotions even when people arent saying anything and my god the world is CHARGED today. Its one of those days where I want to either curl up and cry the rest of the afternoon or go kick ass. Neither of which will happen because I have a 4 page paper due on Wed. not to mention I have a meeting tomorrow morning with Dr. P, to see what happened with me and the test and I have an accounting chapter to read, some econ notes to take and homework that I literally JUST remembered that was assigned and some reading for Cell and Molec. Last week I felt balanced if even just a bit overwhelmed this week I just feel like I am drowning, I cant afford to get another C if I dont make 2-3 A's. Oh and not to mention the whole sorority thing is right there as part of life that is kicking my rear. We have 2 hour meetings three times this week, thank god rush is this weekend and then it will be over.

I was right at the beginning of the semester in thinking that Cell and Molec was going to be my toughest class, but apparently not so correct in thinking that I was gonna do well in it. See we are doing roughly 2 papers per week in that class not to mention the class time, the reading and taking notes of the chapters and the lab work as well. I feel that even though my major is no longer Bio, its still running my life.

Its just one of those days where I dont feel too optimistic. And I am tired of people taking things out on me, if there is a real reason to be angry with me then I understand that but I make an effort not to be a downer and bring my bad moods to the table and I would hope any decent person would do the same, because believe me I pick up on the SLIGHTEST mood change. ITS NO FUN. UGH Irritation