But theres too much bad for us to think
That theres anything worth trying to save.
Tomorrow, by Chris Young.
Oh, Halloween, how you makes me remember LAST Halloween and the beginning of the end, or the end of the beginning?
Been thinking of J lately, sigh. But here's what's been in that thought process lately.
It was last Oct 28th that I cut him off, we didnt talk til March 27 and then we talked fairly frequently through May 26th and then our contact fizzled away. In August, or was it September that we had our last real conversation.
But look at that March 27 through May 26 was our main contact. Thats 2 months. We had a good 2 month out of the last 12 months. Wow. Thats pretty sad. Thats incredibly sad. That means that if we were to lengthen the time, it would take us 6 years to have a good 12 months (for 1 year).
Thats not how I want to live my life. My James chapter is obviously done- except for the lingering thought.
And truth be told- I've noticed that I have been focusing less energy on finding a man. On crushing on guys in my life.
Right now, my focus is on finding a job. On passing my CPA tests. I dont have the time or energy for a guy. I know that sounds like a cop out, and maybe it is, but I really have more pressing things in my life to deal with than guys. If a guy wants to be in my life- he will be.
So here's to quiet blessings, one of which being no longer being led on by JJRDF. Though its a shame that our friendship went to hell too.
Goodnight, love you all.
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