Heart melting moment

So, if you know me at all, you know how much I want kids.
Its like I have child fever, I want kids so bad. But I tell myself that I 1. dont have the means to support kids, and 2. I want to be selfish for a little bit longer before I take the plunge into parenthood.
And while I wait for the right moment- not that there will be one, but lets imagine that there will be- I get my kid fix by spending time with my nieces and nephews. All four of them are growing into not just cute kids, but real people.
Anyway, today was my brother's birthday and we all gathered at his house for a little party- all his wifes doing, and he was obviously annoyed by it all. Then his wife had the gall to refuse a picture with him because it rained today and her hair was frizzy. Ugh. But neither of those things are the point of my story tonight.
After cake and ice cream were consumed the adults were visiting or just sitting around, the children (the 4 mentioned above and and my sister-in-laws twin sister's daughter) were playing in JB's room. Then TA- my youngest nephew walked out of the room carrying a video game leaned against the couch where I was sitting and started to play the game. He proceeded to tell me about the game. I invited him to sit in my lap and play the game, which he did. So there we were sitting on the couch, him in my lap playing this game and me following closely like it was the only thing in the world to do- which at that moment it was. That moment, having my nephew choose to sit in my lap at a big family function- that made my day.
That moment and all of the moments like it is the reason that I want kids. My niece getting excited for a Girl Scout outing because she gets to ride in my car. My older nephew not only willing to give me a hug, but jumping into my arms for a hug. And lastly, having each niece and nephew tell me that they love me.

My hope is that when those kids grow up and get mad at their parents, that I am the one they turn to.
I want to be their stable support.
And eventually, I will have my own kids, but I will be a better mother for spending time with my nieces and nephews.

Heres to kids!