I remember

I remember the party, and seeing something in your eyes that I had never seen before
I remember the night I ran back to the room, the night that my grandma's boyfriend had died, and I was depressed, you made me laugh, even when the very next emotion was sadness with tears.
I remember going to walmart in the middle of the night and playing "never have i ever"
I remember not getting properly scared.
I remember that my dad liked you and trusted you, which made me think somehow this was different
I remember making lots of plans that never got carried through
I remember you talking to my sister-in-law and telling her why you were scared of "us"
I remember my brother saying that guys are just weird sometimes and thinking it wasnt a big deal.
I remember not wanting to be needy, and really trying hard to not care so much.
I remember laughing and hugging
I remember my innocence and how important it turned out to be.
I remember everyone saying that we were good for each other- actually they still do.
I remember needing a break, and you telling me that it wouldnt be the last time that we would talk.
I remember smiling because I never cried for you or over you, and to me that was a big deal.
I remember your plans for moving to Tennessee and how big of a deal that was.
I remember you asking me to trust you, because you hadnt left me.
I remember meeting you 6 months ago today.
I remember you.
One thing that I dont remember... you staying, like you said you would.

Heres to finding the will and the way to move on. Damnit! :)