I started this blog at the end of 2005, which means it has taken me almost 6 years to get to this point.
December 2005 I was a Junior in high school. I had just broken up with my first (and to this point only) boyfriend. And I started this blog because I wanted to be closer to another guy in my life.
Ok, fast forward to now and I still write a great deal about boys-guys, men, whatever, and I have graduated from college.
Highlights from those six years include basketball, J, I, and various trips.
Here's whats different though:
N. the guy who really got me started in blogging, is basically a non-entity in my life. I have talked to him once this year. And I usually see him about once a year. He hasnt graduated from college yet.
M. the first and only boyfriend had a brief reappearance in my life well, 2 days short of exactly 2 years ago.
And oh yea, I have now slept with J, A, M, D... I think thats all- and no, nothing happened with any of them. We simply shared a bed. (PS- JAMD is kind of a cool mnemonic haha).
And me. Believe it or not- I sometimes deny it, but everyone else tells me its true- I am different.
That makes sense though, right?
People, especially teenagers growing up to 20-somethings are going to change, and I kind of like the term evolve.
My world is bigger, my values- stronger, my family- more appreciated, and my friends- are now my family.
I may currently be stuck job-less. But I am doing everything that I can to make myself a better candidate.
And, I am making time for people in my life- for a long time I didnt do that. I have always been willing to put in the effort to see someone, but I always wanted them to make the first move. Now, now I can ask to see them, and hope to god (the universe?) that they want to see me too.
I often see myself as an awkward person, and while that might be true, the only way to get through that is to work through it. Put myself in more social situations- things will be less awkward. My friend I told me that. (Man that makes things confusing. I am going to start calling him S, that way no one will be confused if I means I-myself or I-him.) Anyway, S told me that. He said "I always dread going to work, class, parties, clubs etc. until I am there, then I just have a good time."
When S and I talked on the phone last week, he gave me a lot of good insights that I have been working on implementing in my life.
So, here's to three hundred sixty five in 6 years... Its been quite the ride, and the journey isnt over yet.
Ok, fast forward to now and I still write a great deal about boys-guys, men, whatever, and I have graduated from college.
Highlights from those six years include basketball, J, I, and various trips.
Here's whats different though:
N. the guy who really got me started in blogging, is basically a non-entity in my life. I have talked to him once this year. And I usually see him about once a year. He hasnt graduated from college yet.
M. the first and only boyfriend had a brief reappearance in my life well, 2 days short of exactly 2 years ago.
And oh yea, I have now slept with J, A, M, D... I think thats all- and no, nothing happened with any of them. We simply shared a bed. (PS- JAMD is kind of a cool mnemonic haha).
And me. Believe it or not- I sometimes deny it, but everyone else tells me its true- I am different.
That makes sense though, right?
People, especially teenagers growing up to 20-somethings are going to change, and I kind of like the term evolve.
My world is bigger, my values- stronger, my family- more appreciated, and my friends- are now my family.
I may currently be stuck job-less. But I am doing everything that I can to make myself a better candidate.
And, I am making time for people in my life- for a long time I didnt do that. I have always been willing to put in the effort to see someone, but I always wanted them to make the first move. Now, now I can ask to see them, and hope to god (the universe?) that they want to see me too.
I often see myself as an awkward person, and while that might be true, the only way to get through that is to work through it. Put myself in more social situations- things will be less awkward. My friend I told me that. (Man that makes things confusing. I am going to start calling him S, that way no one will be confused if I means I-myself or I-him.) Anyway, S told me that. He said "I always dread going to work, class, parties, clubs etc. until I am there, then I just have a good time."
When S and I talked on the phone last week, he gave me a lot of good insights that I have been working on implementing in my life.
So, here's to three hundred sixty five in 6 years... Its been quite the ride, and the journey isnt over yet.
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